I just don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s because I’m a product of the cold war era. Maybe because I got to see it in it’s decline, and to see it finally die. Maybe because it gave me such great things as the James Bond series or great post-apocalyptic games. Now, hear me out – it’s not because I want to see society collapse, no, not at all. In fact, I am very much against that, trying to work for the Federal Government to preserve it, having done military time, etc. However, there is something about the exploration that comes with a post-apocalyptic world that ignites a rather childish delight inside of me. Why is it that crawling over broken-ass girders and remnants of houses in games like Fallout 3 entertains me so much?

Perhaps it has to do with the fact that I love UrbEx and all of the nooks and crannies that you can explore. Perhaps it has to do with the fact that I love history, and I love to know as much as possible, so that I enjoy checking out a building or place and imagining all of the history that it contains. My mind just soars as I check out places, as I see things, and I truly feel like an adventurer again.

So I enjoy those Dystopian and post-apocalyptic works. Sadly, part of me feels that some sort of that scenario is creeping up, be it the Gibson-esque vision of gigantic corporations trumping government, or be it a total anarchistic breakdown of society. As people stratify themselves to the elites and the needy, more and more we create friction and stress. Hell, just look at North Korea now.

So, as I sit here playing Fallout 3 with Yuliya doing something on the laptop, I have to ponder why I enjoy this shit so much. It just really doesn’t make sense for someone that is so staunchly a defender of society and the government that we live under. I guess it is that kid in me, I guess that is why I love the little Pip-boy symbols/spokesperson, and I guess that is why I have played this over and over, ignoring the story just to climb around.